Helpless

Everything is awful, or so some people would have you believe. I like to read a general overview of the news each day to just keep a rough idea of what's going on. I don't read too many articles, just mostly headlines or quick summaries, so I know my news knowledge isn't the best, but I have a wide enough variety of right vs. left headlines in my list that I often see the same headline written in opposite ways. I take this as a decent indication that I'm getting the rough idea.

I mostly don't read a lot of articles because I don't need to read the same article about Trump doing something illegal, Scott Moe complaining about the federal government or Justin Trudeau banging Katie Perry day after day. I know these things are happening. If it's a cool, interesting story, like the Onion taking control of Info Wars, I'll read it!

This brings me back to something I've discussed way more than I should on this blog though: Wanting a change and not knowing how to do it. Join a political Think Tank? I wouldn't know where to get in contact or how to start. Go work for a humanitarian organization? Jobs are tough to find right now and don't pay much. I unfortunately need money at moment.

My current workplace does a lot of work for uranium and potash mines, which I think are both good things for the world, but they don't scratch that itch. I don't get to see the good they do. I'm a not entirely dumb human that wants to help. That puts me far ahead of others.

The place I really see a way of scratching the itch is writing in this blog. And only one person reads these. Two if you count me reading while I type. I don't always look at what I type though so I dontae coasfduar that.

I'm sure my brother in life is reading this going "I already type for a living. You ain't all that and a bag of potato chips." Yeah. While I've realized through life that I am probably above average with writing and grandma and what-not, I have no illusion that I am good enough to be a professional writer. I'd probably need a lot more practice and education.

Nor is it something I'd entirely want to do. This blog is fun and I get to say stuff, but it's not work. That's why I enjoy it. I recently listened to a Behind the Bastards episode about Thomas Jefferson who was constantly writing about liberty and talking about how slaves should be emancipated, but every time push came to shove, he had an excuse for why it couldn't happen now. He never freed many slaves and after his presidency started a nail making factory that employed children.

I don't want to be a hippogriff like that. I also haven't really done anything to move on to a new career though. I need some money for education or contacts. And I'm bad at making contacts (they just never fit my eyes. HEEYYOO!!!).

I dunno. Just vomiting on the page for this one. As it sits, I'll just keep drawing lines on paper until the lines consume the unknown universe.